I warned you that as a teacher, you would only get sporadic updates...
So much has happened in the last few months. Did you see that awesome bench project I posted about???? Yeah, that was the last productive thing I did all summer! Mostly because out of nowhere I was just TIRED all the time! After a couple weeks of feeling like too tired to do anything, I found out that I was pregnant!!!
This pregnancy has been interesting to say the least! I don't know what they are supposed to be like, so maybe this is normal. All I can say is that I truly am grateful for this baby! Even though I had morning sickness until week 22 and occasionally still have it, at least that means my hormones are good right?! Even though I haven't been able to sleep through the night in over 4 months, that means this growth is good right?! Even though I have so much back pain that it hurts to breath and she likes doing cannon balls in my womb, that means she is active and healthy right?! Even though I am an emotional basket case who cries over nothing that means I'm a healthy pregnant woman, right?! And even though I am sooooo tired I can barely function, that means she is getting all my energy right?!
In all honesty, Pregnancy is hard! Making a human is tiring! But then I think about being a mommy! I think about holding this little spit-fire baby in my arms as I rock her to sleep. I think about having a child who wants ME when she is not feeling good. I think of a little girl going with ME to mother-daughter activities. I think going to parent teacher conferences as the PARENT! I think of her fighting with ME as a teen...and then I think back to that cute baby image and move on! And I think, "this is really it! I am going to be a MOM!" I feel like being an aunt, a sister, a missionary, and a teacher have just been little glimpses into what I am about to embark on. I love this baby! She is a dream come true! I get to be her mommy...no pressure!
I still have a few weeks left in this pregnancy (6). There is so much to do that I am ok with the idea that I have 6 weeks. However, this is starting to feel real! I talk to her and she moves. Her dad comes home from work and she does this kicking thing in my ribs that she never does any other time. I read to her and she calms down. I play her music and she wiggles what I think is either her knee or her bum. I am so excited to meet her!
As a separate tangent, I am soooo grateful for my AMAZING husband! John has been my support through all of this. He gets me to laugh even when I don't want to. He tells me I'm beautiful even when I feel fat and ugly...and you know what, I think he means it! He wakes up in the middle of the night when I stir to make sure I am ok. He runs upstairs and downstairs all the time to fetch things I have forgotten. He listens to me talk WAY too much about this baby and not enough about us. I could not have asked for a better support through this pregnancy! And I am so excited for him to be a daddy! When we started dating, it was not uncommon for us to speak about our future families...not realizing that it would be our future family. I knew then that he was going to be a great father! That is part of the reason why I loved him so much so quickly. He is not sappy or sentimental, but there is a look he gets on his face when he rubs my tummy and says "There's a baaaabbbyyyy!" that melts my heart and makes me excited for him to be her dad.
Well, wish me luck in the next 2 months! It will truly be life changing! Who knows when I will post more, hopefully before her 1st birthday!
